September 12 -- BY SPIRITUAL CONFUSION
"Ye know not what ye ask" (Matt. 20:22).
There are times in spiritual life when there is confusion, and it is no way out to say that there ought not to be confusion. It is not a question of right and wrong but a question of God taking you by a way which in the meantime you do not understand, and it is only by going through the confusion that you will get at what God wants.
The Shrouding of His Friendship. Luke 11:5-8. Jesus gave the illustration of the man who looked as if he did not care for his friend, and He said that that is how the Heavenly Father will appear to you at times. You will think He is an unkind friend, but remember He is not; the time will come when everything will be explained. There is a cloud on the friendship of the heart, and often even love itself has to wait in pain and tears for the blessing of fuller communion. When God looks completely shrouded, will you hang on in confidence in Him?
The Shadow on His Fatherhood. Luke 11:11-13. Jesus says there are times when your Father will appear as if He were an unnatural father, as if He were callous and indifferent, but remember He is not; I have told you - "Everyone that asketh receiveth." If there is a shadow on the face of the Father just now, hang onto it that He will ultimately give His clear revealing and justify Himself in all that He permitted.
The Strangeness of His Faithfulness. Luke 18:1-8. "When the Son of Man cometh, shall He find faith on the earth?" Will He find the faith which banks on Him in spite of the confusion? Stand off in faith believing that what Jesus said is true, though in the meantime you do not understand what God is doing. He has bigger issues at stake than the particular things you ask.
—My Utmost For His Highest
These words of Oswald Chambers spoke very clearly to me last week. I honestly have no idea of what is going on in my life right now. My plans looked to me continuing working here for another year. It looks like this could all be changing very rapidly.
My health issues from earlier in the year have continued and worsened. The doctor, whom I do have confidence in, wanted to try hormone therapy first to try and shrink the cysts I have, but I have had reverse effects. Right now I am waiting for another ultrasound, but the doctor who does that is only in the city one day a week and last week he decided not to come at all. Most likely I will need surgery and plan to return to the US for that.
God has given His perfect peace to me. It is not just a feeling but also thoughts and actions and yet I am confused.
Pray for the doctors this week as they make decisions and that the insurance company will be on the same page as the doctors. And pray that in my confusion I will remain faithful to God's purposes in all of this.
"Ye know not what ye ask" (Matt. 20:22).
There are times in spiritual life when there is confusion, and it is no way out to say that there ought not to be confusion. It is not a question of right and wrong but a question of God taking you by a way which in the meantime you do not understand, and it is only by going through the confusion that you will get at what God wants.
The Shrouding of His Friendship. Luke 11:5-8. Jesus gave the illustration of the man who looked as if he did not care for his friend, and He said that that is how the Heavenly Father will appear to you at times. You will think He is an unkind friend, but remember He is not; the time will come when everything will be explained. There is a cloud on the friendship of the heart, and often even love itself has to wait in pain and tears for the blessing of fuller communion. When God looks completely shrouded, will you hang on in confidence in Him?
The Shadow on His Fatherhood. Luke 11:11-13. Jesus says there are times when your Father will appear as if He were an unnatural father, as if He were callous and indifferent, but remember He is not; I have told you - "Everyone that asketh receiveth." If there is a shadow on the face of the Father just now, hang onto it that He will ultimately give His clear revealing and justify Himself in all that He permitted.
The Strangeness of His Faithfulness. Luke 18:1-8. "When the Son of Man cometh, shall He find faith on the earth?" Will He find the faith which banks on Him in spite of the confusion? Stand off in faith believing that what Jesus said is true, though in the meantime you do not understand what God is doing. He has bigger issues at stake than the particular things you ask.
—My Utmost For His Highest
These words of Oswald Chambers spoke very clearly to me last week. I honestly have no idea of what is going on in my life right now. My plans looked to me continuing working here for another year. It looks like this could all be changing very rapidly.
My health issues from earlier in the year have continued and worsened. The doctor, whom I do have confidence in, wanted to try hormone therapy first to try and shrink the cysts I have, but I have had reverse effects. Right now I am waiting for another ultrasound, but the doctor who does that is only in the city one day a week and last week he decided not to come at all. Most likely I will need surgery and plan to return to the US for that.
God has given His perfect peace to me. It is not just a feeling but also thoughts and actions and yet I am confused.
Pray for the doctors this week as they make decisions and that the insurance company will be on the same page as the doctors. And pray that in my confusion I will remain faithful to God's purposes in all of this.
posted by Jessica at 6:09 AM
1 Comments:
I will pray for you. I am sad that you are going through what you are.
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